Hypertune- Satria Neo Crews Club

Sexy girls and motorsports are inseparable. I just dont get it. Bleh!
(U can perhaps think that girls are sex machines. But, cars are real machines! how the hell guys put these together? stupid aight? bias!)

Here's an article about Satria Neo Crews that is featured on the Hypertune Magazine Vol 97. I'm quite proud of having my first writing published on a national motorsport magazine. (Hey Neena, give yourself a round of applause! clap clap!). However, I do regret that I didn't submit my real name. My dad has told me how important it is to include my real name, as I can trash that in my CV and for future reference.

Im quite angry though to have found this article featured on certain blogs by sum useless dog before it's officially published for the magazine. Coz, i patiently waited for 3 months to finally see this writing at the right page (not on that stupid blog)!

To read more, buy the magazine!

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I was quite shocked to see the number of visit appeared. I thought only less than 10 people would at least read this blog. Neways..u take care and have a nice day!

Vai via schlampe und arschloches!!

i can't name the title for this. but it's sumtin for me to ponder.

2010 is approaching. I should have made an end-year report of 2009 by now.

Actually, I thought 2009 was gonna take me to another level and I thought I could achieve something great for myself. Now, I could say that what I’ve encountered so far haven’t brought much change to myself. I changed for the better ( a slight change). But what do I gain in return? I guess nothing. I feel betrayed. At some point, I do regret of things I’ve done this year. What was I thinking?

I wanted things to be proper and better. I wanted to have more souls close to mine, I wanted to be accepted in a larger group of people. I wanted to achieve and improve myself. Yet, it was quite like a dirty and rough game. I was persuaded and tempted. And so, I gave in though how much I refused and hesitated to start the similar game again. I knew how it feels like if I lose in this game. I fell, I stumbled, I knocked myself and badly hurt before.

Since the beginning, I knew it wasn’t a good one. But I gave it a try. I think, until now I’m still giving in. After so long shutting myself down, I wanted to take a new breath. I felt it. I feel it. Now, I feel so much betrayed. I don’t trust this world. I don’t trust this game I’m in. They’re cheating and they are fooling me.

A decision has been made. After quite a long time of consideration, I determine to quit all these. I’m sick of pretending. I’m sick of lying to myself. I’m sick of getting the blade stab through my heart.

So, soon, slowly I’m leaving this game. I surrender.

I found souls, lovely souls (my first impression) getting closer to me. I wanted to appreciate them. But I had a second thought. Do I have to be thankful for getting the new souls? Have they been really sincere and real? I can’t read these souls at all. But deep down inside, I feel that mine and theirs are like parasites. Close to each other for benefits. So, a NO from me! they aren’t trustworthy. The souls are unacceptable. Before they suck more blood out of me, I better leave them.

But how do I deal with it? If I were to leave all these behind..what will come to me? I’m too fearful of how do I restart with a new life. I’ve been too much depending on them. I’m afraid to move on. I don’t know what it’s like to be on my own again.

what's going on?!

today is a really bad day for me. im miserable. i feel that the whole world is against me!. got stuck in a course for the whole day, Had to drive up to a FELDA, 1 hr 30 mins away from my work place, got stranded in a traffic jam. had not spoken much with my bf... had an arguement with a lady at the post office's counter! got my bag burnt by my smoke. oh God! what went wrong??..why the whole world is against me??.

in the mid day, i was called up by the officer from PPD. He told me that im in a deep shit!

Rides with car club

i have no regret joining this club.
ive expanded my friendship circle and really been close to some people. i gain knowledge about motorsports etc..

Rides and activities to different places really make me back into life.

i feel glad to have met new people. Some are nice. but some are fucked up.
oh well, this world is full of liars and backstabbers. what more can i say?

despite these liars and backstabbers, the nice ones really make my days. Im glad to be around them. I have great fun. Plus, by being with them, i hinder myself from involving in certain 'acceptable' immoral activities (which i have no against others who involve in those...but i just refrain myself for some reasons, which sometimes i really do miss those old days..)..
but, oh well, money drains out...:(