Wer Bin Ich Wirklich für dich?

Wer Bin Ich Wirklich für dich?

Ich weiss nicht genau, was ich will,
das Leben gibt so viel her
Wo fang ich an?
Das Rad in mir steht niemals still,
ich treibe durch’s Häusermeer,
ich such‘ mich um weiter zu komm‘
Ich such‘ mich und lauf‘ mir davon
Wer bin ich wirklich
und wer bist du?
Mein Herz kennt den Weg nicht,
es kommt nicht zur Ruh‘,
wenn ich mich zweifelnd verrenn‘,
mich selber nicht kenn‘,
sag‘, wofür liebst du mich dann?
Wer bin ich wirklich für dich?
Was läuft für ein Film tief in dir,
ist in deinem Drehbuch noch ’ne Rolle frei?
Was hast du für Bilder von mir,
erkennt man die Liebe noch
als zweitauend teiliges Spiel, hm hm?
Ein Puzzel aus wirrem Gefühl.
Was ist das genau,
was ich von dir will,
was ist das genau,
was du für mich fühlst?

2006

finally, 2006 was over. damn i think that was the most challenging year ever in my life. too many upside downs. i found love, but its broken. tried to keep it, but its gone. for 10 months, its enough of us. we broke up cause of the distance. it was hard though. i was going through hell lotsa assignments…and bad days, sickness..and then a big shock ever. i think, its nearly 3 months i broke up. well anyways, im glad that i had the relationship. if it wasnt him, i wouldnt be in germany for twice. and i wouldnt get a damn great result for my final year. and i wouldnt know how it feels like to end up in the hospital *wink*. what a memory.

now, im still confused with my life. i dont know what/which is the reality that awaits for me. i cant wait to go through this year. i wanna find my way to get out of this shithole. i cant adapt myself to where i am right now. everynight and everyday, i have the illusion that im somewhere…but im holding on the goal that ive made. im gonna make it real about germany. a new guy has come into the picture. He’s been behind me, supporting me all this while….and he’s still there for me. i owe himm…i like him…he makes my days!. the time in germany during winter recently….ive had the best time in my life ;)..christmas, birthday and new year in europe…and last year was in australia..i feel soo lucky!.

although i cried so many tears for the past relationship, ive had big smiles with the new relationship ive gained. i thank him a million for that. i believe in a new life….wishing that everythings gonna be alright…..phew..one more year..hang in there mieza!..